Acknowledge Him in all your ways and He will make your path straight.
My heart could just explode trying to write this and deciding on one thing to write about. This year there have been so many things --- so much change and freedom how could I get it all in once post?
I guess I will start with where it all began, the end of my strength. Now if you're a mom you will probably really understand this part. If you are not a mom, go thank your mother for surviving potty training (thanks mom!). I know I sound extremely dramatic but when I recall back to my first attempt (yes there have been multiple attempts) at potty training our 3 year old son about a year ago it seems blurry and like a near death experience. It was hard and it left me defeated, disappointed, and exhausted. My spirit and heart were dry and near death. I gave it everything I had. Really I did. But to no avail I did not succeed and realized I did everything but give it to Jesus.
With the return of my mother-in-love to the states from Indonesia she quickly realized something was off. She ever so gently told me that my spirit seemed so tiny (tired and faint) and much to my surprise rather than feeling offended or defensive I felt relief. I was thankful that someone had understood what was in my heart and reminded me that all I had to do was surrender to Jesus. This 5 minute conversation just about saved my life. Not my physical but my spiritual life. No one can survive on their own strength. In fact ultimately that is telling Jesus you don't need him and that you will save yourself --- which will never work.
Most people would claim that they are already thankful. I know would have until experiencing the change in my heart. But I've found there is brand new gratitude to Jesus overflowing from my heart. While this experience would be considered petty to most, I found that it rippled into a wave that changed my life. Forever.
"The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him." Psalm 28:7
Being able to work in ministry full time is an amazing thing. This past year listening has been a big lesson and life change for me. I have found that God has a lot to speak to me through those He places in my path to do life and ministry with. I found that it was a freeing thing to take in to account someone else because they may have something from God for me or a better idea for a task that I am trying to accomplish in my ministry.
One day I was talking with Ben, lead singer of Bread of Stone, about a project I was working on. I felt in my heart I should ask for help but went ahead and made a decision alone that ended in a mistake. What Ben shared with me was that if my standards are at a certain level the people that I teach and lead will have standards that are lower and it will continue to decrease from there. Nothing will be done to the best of my ability for the Lord.
In 1 Kings 16 they speak of a man named Baasha, and the Prophet Jehu comes to him and says to him a word from the Lord which is as follows "In as much as I lifted you out of the dust and made you ruler over My people Israel, and you have walked in the way of Jeroboam, and have made my people Israel sin, to provoke Me to anger with their sins, surely I will take away the posterity of Baasha and the posterity of his house, and I will make your house like the house of Jeroboam the son of Nebat. The Dogs shall eat whoever belongs to Baasha and dies in the city, and the birds of the air shall eat whoever dies in the fields."
I need to acknowledge Him in everything I do, since He is the one who gave me this ministry to be apart of and the skills and gifts to use in this ministry. God has put the people here to help me to look to Him and learn in this life to become closer to Himself. If I do not do this, all those I am put in place to lead and work with may not do this either.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.
In the past I’ve experienced letting the Lord guide my next steps in life or take control of a certain situation, and while that is an important part of the Christian walk with Jesus, I’ve recognized it for quite some time. What I’ve never quite understood is what it feels like to give Jesus complete control of my own heart.
Over the last few months I’ve learned a lot about my heart, specifically giving it up, and letting Jesus takeover.
As I prayed and searched through scripture trying to understand how Jesus works in my heart, I came across Psalm 139. Actually, truth be told, I almost skipped right by it, but before I could turn the page, my eyes became fixated on it. Verse 1 specifically, which reads “You have searched me Lord, and you KNOW me” or the Voice translation “O Eternal One, You have explored my heart and know EXACTLY who I am.” As I continued reading, my eyes kept returning to this verse, so I paused and reflected on Psalm 139:1. As I read these words over and over again they sank deeper and deeper into my entire being. I was overwhelmed by how refreshed I felt.
This verse made so much sense to me and it made me see so simply, how Jesus knows me, sees me, and loves me. He already knows everything about my heart, I just have to surrender to him. My simple daily prayer is to ask Jesus to continue to invade my heart, that I would lose all control and he would takeover. I know I am a work in progress, and I struggle with this, but as I let Jesus control my heart, I won’t be able to deny commitment to him, and my relationship with him will grow more and more in sync.
If I would some up 2017 in one word, it would be blessings. Blessings of many different musical opportunities as a band, blessings of a new home, a new family and having another year to serve, learn and grow.
The year was full of change and a total transformations for me.
It all began in March while on the bus in a little church parking lot in Terrell, Texas. It was there, I felt God’s presence like I never have before. The wind blew and the bus shook as I was delivered from the spirit of perfectionism that ruled my life for so long.
Freedom is something we as a band often sing about, but I finally came to the realization my singing it was prayer yearning for that freedom. Now it is my proclamation as I have that freedom.
The strongholds that kept me bound were now gone for good. The physical didn’t change for me. I still strive to do my best and be perfect in what I do, but in my heart and to who’s standard of perfectionism I hold myself to, is what has changed.
It seems like such a small shift, but it makes the world of a difference!
In May, I got married and was able to celebrate with my band family by my side. On my 3rd Anniversary since joining Bread of Stone, Skylar and I had our first bus call as husband and wife. The love and support we have from not only our families, but from this community of believers we’re able to share life with - that we just happen to call ourselves Bread of Stone - is truly a blessing.
Blessings come in all shapes and sizes - the good, even the bad and everything in between - that’s why God’s ways and His thoughts are not ours. No matter what path The Lord has us on and what He’s placed in front of us, it’s all to make us more like Jesus and therefore it’s all a blessing from God.
I’ve learned so much this past summer about how the Lord can teach us so many things - things that we never even thought we could learn - and constantly mold us, but only if we allow Him to. I’ve learned how to open my heart to Jesus in everything that I do, whether it’s running sound for Bread of Stone or setting up and tearing down, and it makes this life that much MORE beautiful!
For example...getting married and traveling with Bread of Stone, I thought I would maybe help like a stage hand would or even tune guitars since I play guitar too. But instead, I ended up having to run sound for the band - which is something I had never done before, nor did I know anything about it - my very first event with them as Jason’s wife! And since then, I’ve completely fallen in love with sound engineering!
It was something completely unexpected for me, but in that way God has shown me how His thoughts are higher. We just have to be willing and open to put our hands to whatever He puts in front of us and to learn things that are maybe out of our comfort zone.
My favorite verse is Hebrews 11:1 which says, “Now faith is being sure of what you hope for, and certain of what you do not see.” That’s the most amazing thing about faith - still moving forward and believing when you don’t see the whole picture, or even just the next step!
I’m so thankful for everything Jesus has taught me this year and can’t wait to see what’s next!
A little over a year ago I got a call from Bill (who is not only the guitarist for BOS but also my brother-in-law) to come and work for Bread of Stone. Immediately my stomach turned to knots and from head to toe nerves shook me. Everything in myself was saying “noooooooooooooooooo.” But at the very same time a small voice whispered, “it’s time.” My life was going to change and I knew it. I didn’t want to leave my family, I didn’t want to leave home, and I didn’t want to leave everything that I ever knew. But I also knew, so strongly that I had to.
So I did, I left, but there were things that I didn’t let go of. It was like I was following Jesus, but these little things that I held on to kept pulling me in a different direction. My ideas and concepts were roaring and I fought so bad to keep them, as if they were the truth. (“Come on, Sarah. What in the world?”)
And then one day, one glorious day, the Lord said, “Sarah, you don’t have to fight. There doesn’t have to be a battle, just let go and follow me.” In that moment I saw myself… “What was I doing? Why am I still carrying these things.” I had to let go! I had to let go of everything! My concepts, my family, my home, my ways, my thoughts! (Notice a common word?) So I let go and it was so easy and I felt so much FREEEDOMMMM! Praise the Lord!
I couldn’t see what was on the other side of the hill. I couldn’t see so I just wanted to stay. It was easy and comfortable. I was in control, and if I ventured off to the other side, I would loose it all. But what I didn’t realize is that something greater was waiting for me. The bible says, “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” And when we let go of the things that we are carrying and holding on to and give Him our whole heart, we get to see Jesus in a way like never before. We get to see Him in a little bit more of the bigger picture. We see where he is at and what he is doing. We find Him.
We are excited to announce that in the upcoming year of 2018 we will start a new testimony series! We have an ever growing team here at the Bread of Stone/BNY Pro Headquarters and we want you all to meet them and hear what the Lord has been doing in each of their lives!
Check out our latest music video, "Like a River" now!
July 1, 2016
It's finally here! Today is the day! Our new album "Hold the Light" is available on iTunes and all other digital music outlets! We hope you enjoy and we would love to hear what you think!
Check our our latest videos "Love That Lasts" and "Love Changed Everything" from our new record "Not Alone!"
We are releasing a new album this July 1st 2016! Check out our social media to find out more info daily and win some prizes along the way!
We were invited to play at the Super Bowl Halftime Show this year, but being so busy with our new record we declined. So we sent this "Mini-BOS" cover band in our place. Here is a sneak peak! ;)
Coming to you from Bandung, Indonesia!
We are so excited to share the news that we hit #1 on Billboard's Christian Rock Chart! Hearing this news while in Indonesia made it especially profound. Thoughts of radio adds, spins, and interviews, were left in the states when we boarded the plane. This meant somewhat of initial shock when we found our single Porcelain at #3 last week, and unbelief when we were told it hit #1!
We are so grateful this happened during our time in Indonesia because it is complete confirmation that this did not happen because of our efforts, the Lord chose this time to share his word through us with more and more people. The lyrics scream "come on and break me!" pleading to the Lord to break us of ourself, take away our masks, acts, and charades of being perfect to the eye when our hearts are screaming to be revived by the Holy Spirit. How fitting it is that this is exactly what our hearts have been meditating on here in Indonesia.
We never wished to hit #1, but only desired that the Holy Spirit would move through our music. So whether we drop off the charts completely after this week or continue to stay at #1 we will continue to seek the Lord and be used by Him!
Thank you to all of the love and support from our friends and listeners! God bless you!
Check out our latest video for our single "All In" off our new record "Not Alone!"
We are so excited to be heading out on the Hope is Something More Tour!! Along with Kutless and Shawn McDonald? Hope to see you there!
Check out our new lyric video for our upcoming single, "All In!"
February 25, 2015
Finally! Our newest record, Not Alone has been officially released to the public! You can get it here! We hope you enjoy the sound and lyrics. Check out this video of our "CD Release Party!"
This just in! We are so excited to announce the release of our fourth full-length album: Not Alone. Available on iTunes and online February 24, 2015!
Not Alone is a collaboration of some of our favorite producers, musicians, and our own recording that began in the back lounge of our bus and continued on in our home. The theme of the album is simply LOVE.
We cannot wait for the world to hear the music and lyrics the Lord has given us!
The past few months have been a whirlwind of writing and recording for all of us in Bread of Stone! Between recording in our home studio, traveling to other producer’s studios, and writing with various other artists in the Christian industry, we continued traveling and performing. The result of our efforts continues to be a rockin’ blend of tunes that push the current limits!
As of right now, we have a couple shows in December but are primarily concentrating on getting the new music out to our loyal fans as quick as possible! There is no set date yet for the release of the new album (hopefully that date will be out soon) but Ben says, “We are shooting for the first of the year. The Lord has given us a specific message to give to our listeners and we are eager to get the message out.”