A little over a year ago I got a call from Bill (who is not only the guitarist for BOS but also my brother-in-law) to come and work for Bread of Stone. Immediately my stomach turned to knots and from head to toe nerves shook me. Everything in myself was saying “noooooooooooooooooo.” But at the very same time a small voice whispered, “it’s time.” My life was going to change and I knew it. I didn’t want to leave my family, I didn’t want to leave home, and I didn’t want to leave everything that I ever knew. But I also knew, so strongly that I had to.
So I did, I left, but there were things that I didn’t let go of. It was like I was following Jesus, but these little things that I held on to kept pulling me in a different direction. My ideas and concepts were roaring and I fought so bad to keep them, as if they were the truth. (“Come on, Sarah. What in the world?”)
And then one day, one glorious day, the Lord said, “Sarah, you don’t have to fight. There doesn’t have to be a battle, just let go and follow me.” In that moment I saw myself… “What was I doing? Why am I still carrying these things.” I had to let go! I had to let go of everything! My concepts, my family, my home, my ways, my thoughts! (Notice a common word?) So I let go and it was so easy and I felt so much FREEEDOMMMM! Praise the Lord!
I couldn’t see what was on the other side of the hill. I couldn’t see so I just wanted to stay. It was easy and comfortable. I was in control, and if I ventured off to the other side, I would loose it all. But what I didn’t realize is that something greater was waiting for me. The bible says, “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” And when we let go of the things that we are carrying and holding on to and give Him our whole heart, we get to see Jesus in a way like never before. We get to see Him in a little bit more of the bigger picture. We see where he is at and what he is doing. We find Him.